I'm just kind of nervous what he's going to say when I tell him how I've been since I last saw him in April. I'm not a big talker and having to explain all this **** makes me nervous.

Being on meds again also makes me nervous because of side effects and the temptation to not be med compliant. Have to believe and continue to believe the meds aren't poison.

And I guess nervous that someone is going to tell me I'm ****ed up and things won't get better.