I do not look at it as you being an unhappy person. I look at it as you are mourning the loss of your physical and mental vitality (though you make so much sense in this thread) and want to continue living. This thread is viral because we want to hear your story and your have so much wise advice. Thanks for sharing your story.

Some people fight death's door with all they've got. I witnessed some people live far longer than expected because they were such fighters. Since middle school, I have always viewed death fatalistically but perhaps I will become fearful again about it (like when I was in elementary school) when I am knocking on heaven's door. I think it is good to talk about feelings and fears. None of us know the exact hour and time, but we all have a future appointment with death......