I'm up to 10 days with no bingeing and/or purging. A new record since March. I have the urge to do it, yet I really don't want to go through it. I am struggling with the thoughts : If I don't do it, will I regret missing my opportunity? (Silly, I know because if it comes down to it I can do it any day) but I make rules up like I can't do it within 5 days of having previously done it. And some days I think about in the future, like will I want to do it then? If I do then I have to do it by this day so I have the X number of days in between. If I don't do it, then if I feel I need it in the meantime before the specified day, what will I do?

I don't know if any of that made sense to anyone, but that is what I'm struggling most with right now.