I might be totally off but SI for me as always included a large portion of wanting to have control of my future or lack of it. My medical issues make me feel like I have no control and I am not ok with them ruling my life. I was on a medication about a year ago that was messing up my liver but I was only taking it because my mom wanted me to get rid of my adult acne (Accutane), eventually, I just stopped taking it since the worst thing that could happen is my skin not looking nice.

I would tell the doctor you want an alternative to the zyprexa, it isn't like there are not 50 other meds you could be taking. I get frustrating they insist on keeping my on Latuda even though it made me put on 100lbs and I am not pre diabetic but I am dealing for now because it really controls my mania. Liver damage is more frightening than being fat, is there a reason they will not switch you to something else? There are just so many meds in that class I don't understand why a doctor would insist on keeping you on one that is making you sick.