100mg of trazadone, 5mg of melatonin, and 5 valerian root capsules later....and I still can't ****ing sleep. What the ****. My mind won't stop going on and on. Not even anything significant. ****ing ********, seriously.

I don't know how I'll be tomorrow. Hypo or just exhausted from not sleeping enough. Although if I fall asleep soon I still have a chance at 7 hours. That's not so bad.

I can't even get up and do anything because I feel drugged. My nurse said I could take up to 150mg of trazadone but I'm afraid I won't be able to wake up in the am if I take another 50mg. If I can't sleep Friday night I will.

Seeing nurse again tomorrow. Pretty sure she's going to increase vraylar. Dosing is between 3 and 6mg for bipolar. Only on 1.5mg right now. She wants to put me back on invega if this doesn't work. Good, I'll just be fat forever. That's great. And have high prolactin and damage my bone density. Get diabetes. Have EPS. Good times.

gonna try to sleep again.