I have always had irrational emotional and grief pain attacks. My family never knew but I have cried myself to sleep regularly my whole life because of these attacks. The pain and grief are about my family members and always were. Why I never tried to talk with my Mom or Dad about this goes to my inability to communicate with my family because they did not communicate with me.

But now I realize that the emotions which are overwhelming are not rational at my age and I need to get rid of them somehow.

Recently, I have thought that maybe my alters are having these attacks and the emotions are being passed through to me. That is why I cannot control the emotions and why they are so overbearing.

Anyone have any experiences with this?