I don't seem to gel with women at all. Even sex workers have mistreated me, and I don't know about you, but who wants to pay £150 or more to an escort if you cannot get it up? Half of them abused me from the minute I walked in the door. They had a very monotone (cold) attitude. Very icy, actually. It was like, take your clothes off, shower, do the business, then bugger off, mate. Seriously! They looked at me like they wanted to kick the living daylights out of me. I'm sure they wouldn't be shy about doing it either.

I met someone through Gumtree after I arranged to meet her in person once, with a support worker present. I'm really nervous when it comes to meeting people for the first time, but this is natural even for "normal" people. My mouth goes dry and I stutter, or feel anxious. She probably felt nervous as well.

She said she thought she has bipolar. This had nothing to do with dating. It was just a friendly encounter. She brought another guy with her too, and we played pool. At the weekend, the three of us tried to find a place to play pool again, but everywhere was busy. As we walked back up the road, I was a bit quiet, so I just started talking about my taste in music since I didn't know what else to say. Being young pups, I guess that totally bored them. Then I got text messages from this lassie and that other guy saying they didn't like me because I never stopped talking, and they were going on about how we didn't click. Maybe my conversation skills are very poor, but there was no need to treat me like garbage. Even if you do meet nice girls you would love to go out with, they are always taken, they are gay, they just want to be friends, or they are just in town temporarily. It's very annoying for single men. Smaller cities must be worse and more lonesome. Also, that means there's more of a chance of encountering gossipers too. It happened to me when I went to the Isle of Arran once with my family, for a vacation. This bus driver hurried us up and I said something because it was stupid of him to make us hurry when we had heavy luggage. My relative in the post office even knew about that.

Speaking of treating people like garbage. The only girl I ever really was in a "relationship" with was this cow I met back in 2005 when I was doing a course in college. We never saw each other for over 6 years after we briefly dated. I'm sure she knew I was looking for her for such a long time, too. What followed was a hell of a time. She got me to by her an iPod, on credit. She bullied me and got lots of money and gifts from me, and lots of free food. The ungrateful witch also lied to me a lot, and was probably seeing this other guy the whole time. When I saw her on and off after all the carry on, she was sometimes okay, but mostly acting bipolar.

To be honest, I keep thinking it will always be this way. I know people say that you will find someone when you stop looking. Yeah, right. I've more of a chance of springs flying out of my keyboard, truth be told.