I must admit I don't know many of the words you posted. I got the gist "mostly" but it's very clear you are intelligent and well read. I'm the opposite of you, hiding and hoping not to be found by anyone of my past.....not wanting anyone to hear me except the people of PC who know me as an anonymous "blondie" ....I didn't read Gatsby....I started it but didn't finish. The movie was wonderful though....charming and sad and gave many moments to pause and think. I've watched it over and over and over. My crush on the older, more filled out Leo has only a small part to play.

I hope you are seen and heard in the ways you need. We humans need connection....we were not designed to be alone, though life can sometimes provide us no other option due to the malfunctions in essence the people around us can set into motion. Keep fighting to find your people....they are out there and your brilliant light shines bright enough to beckon them. (((Hugs)))