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Originally Posted by Bill3
You are saying that this relationship led you to make a significant, challenging, healthy change in your preferences and behavior (stopping drinking).
that is correct.
What other such changes (positive and/or negative) can you attribute to this relationship?
-started surfing again for exercise, eat better. just feel healthier over all.
-- she does tend to be a walking trigger for my cPTSD stuff, what with her outlandishness, her way of dressing, her sexy hot clothes she wears on stage, her fake boobs, etc. Yeah, I've got jealousy issues about past boyfriends and behavior of hers, and i'm working on that stuff. the fact that at the start of us she wasn't completely disengaged from her narcissist ex does have me on eggshells about him. she had stuff of his to return, tons of pix of them on a recent vacation, a yellow pad sitting next to me at the breakfast table that i looked in. she was venting her rage at what asshole he was. line that haunts me still: i will never let you come in my mouth again; i only did it this time because i promised i would and I keep my promises.
And what about for her--what changes have you noticed in her that could be attributed to the relationship?
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she had some kind of weird body dymorphia that has gone away, because she trusts me. it's taken her a long time to be completely naked with me, but she's pretty good at it now. we're slowly working on showering together.
she says i'm the only guy who hasn't judged her for something really terrible that happened to her when she was 15 and that's allowed her to be more herself than ever before. She says my presence reduces her stress levels a ton. due to health issues, she can't walk too far without stopping; i have the same issue, which makes me the first guy who doesn't get frustrated with her for having to stop. she likes that i'm not constantly urging her to hurry up.
she says she will stop drinking if i need her to. but, frankly, i don't think she could. she needs it to help unwind her stiff cramped body.