Omg that was the FUNNIEST pnurse meeting I have ever had. She was flipping out and for some reason I thought it was hysterical! That's so ****ed up of me. I couldn't stop laughing. She could tell I was out of my mind so I didn't really need to say anything. I don't know why I thought it was so funny. Anyway she increased the vraylar and wants me to start on depakote. Immediately. Like 500mg right off the bat.

I don't care. I took depakote fifteen years ago. The only thing I remember was being pissed off all the time but that could have been my situation. I was living in a group home at the time. I'll try it again. She says it'll make me sleep. I don't see that happening. But maybe.

She said she wanted to call my mom but I refused to let her. My mom just gets all bent out of shape. She's not helpful. It just brings me back to childhood which I do not need. She told me to go to the ER if it gets worse but I'm not doing that. Unless I get psychotic. But even then I won't. I've been out of the hospital 2 years! I'm not going back. I got **** to do. And I can't traumatized my son like that. Obviously if I feel unsafe I will go but I think I'll be ok.

She wanted to see me Thursday again but she had no appointment available so I dunno when I'm going to see her again. I have her cell phone number in case of emergency though.

By the way my energy theory is holding true. I picked up my son and he's leaching the energy right out. I'm getting irritable instead of elated.