I'm annoyed and mad at my T.
So I had a session yesterday and I was telling him about how my pregnancy might be classified as high risk and if it does my midwife will have to transfer my care to an OB. I didn't have a great experience with an OB last time, so I'm upset. He told me that my resistance to a transfer of care are my "irrational" thoughts due to my depression talking. He told me that an OB is a better choice than a midwife in any case and that it's safer for a women to have an OB than a midwife. I completely disagree and felt like he had no idea what he was talking about. He went on to say that his wife would do anything to get pregnant and would be happy to switch places with me. My daughter passed away last year so this pregnancy and thought of this child is terrifying. Would she really be happy to switch places with me? I felt like he was angry with me.
I had already agreed to group counselling but at the end of my session he said he felt that group counselling would be more beneficial than individual counselling to help me deal with my "irrational" thoughts. He said he would check in with me after the group finishes in 8 weeks.
I feel like he's dumping me because he can't handle the fact that I'm pregnant and his wife is not. I find out if my care is being transferred next Friday and now I have to deal with the result of that and the rest of my pregnancy (another 12 weeks) with just group therapy. I don't feel like group is going to give me enough time to talk about what I want/need to talk about. I'm just upset and angry.