Things are in a way just like normal (i'm in a new T relationship) and yet i am more independent now - not really in an "i can handle things" way, but of a "Well F...." and ignore it hoping it will go away sense. I think i've only had maybe 6 sessions with T. Last time she did give me her cell number and asked me to please call the crisis line if things go bad (SI) but i don't think i will if that happens. I just don't know her well enough. I spose that just *knowing* i have her number is enough. I always talk myself out of calling when I probably should.

This break is 11 days - tomorrow would be my normal T day... So i keep thinking - just till Friday, Just till Friday. She did schedule me in when she wasn't going to, so I suppose that is a bonus and I know she is concerned because the holidays are stressful for most ppl (add that by x10 for us, eh?) so she wants me to be able to reach out and have contact during the holiday time.

i have had some doozies come up, lots of triggers and some hard choices to make, but I didn't even write about them (email). I know she won't check her email until probably 15 minutes before i see her, so there's really no point.

I, too, got an unexpected hug at the end of last session (wasn't sure if that was ok or not ok with me, either).

Thanks for the thread.
Kiya