Currently I am going to college to become a drug addictions counsellor, and the pre requisite to be accepted into the course was you had to be clean for 3 years, which I have been, but it's really difficult I struggled with a drug addiction and self harm for quite a few years and all that's holding me back from not doing it again is my school. (which is completely bogus I might add) But all that keeps running through my head is how I could probably just do it again and not even get caught. Due to my accident my mother ha me speaking with a psychologist about my problems but I feel like I'm going no where as I've learned everything she is saying to me in class. I'm kinda just lost... Like I don't want everyone in my life to know how broken I am, I don't want my boyfriend to know how I'm feeling as he is going through hell himself right now and my parents are so proud of "how far I've come" most people just tell me that I'm being a coward and that my life is too perfect for me to be "acting like such a baby".
I don't know why I'm even making this post honestly.