Stormy - i'm right t/here with you. You said you felt orphaned, and that is just it. Tonight, i finally am away from my abusers and am alllllllllllll alone and feel orphaned. I know they are not good people and i am better off now, but... i ...

I had plans tonight with a new person.verging on friend... but she canceled = orphaned. So now i have 5 hours to kill until church (i got asked to sing in this choir because they are short on ppl - asked by the same person who now won't even be there) = orphaned.

I feel mad at myself too, because i should be jumping for JOY that I am away from abusers.... and yet, i just feel sad and empty.
kiya