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Old Aug 10, 2017, 09:35 PM
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I would rather have anything than psychosis. Heartbreak sends me into psychosis. My first psychotic break happened right after my beloved dog got hit by a car (I keep my dogs restrained but he slipped his collar). There were obviously additional factors but his death didn't help.


Im so sorry valley.

Ive been taking my meds for a little under a week now and i still feel out of it. I just feel weird and more vulnerable to "entertaining" these thoughts i have.

I feel like i am more vulnerable to these thoughts right now. Which puts massive fear in me and more anxiety cuz i also dont have my gabapentin. Havent had it for a month.

I hate saying sht like this but...i feel like every news article i read on facebook its telling me something secretive that only i can see through the news article. Which, personally, is not safe for me. Because my paranoia is...its just not safe for me.

I almost slipped today and said something to my pss. I wouldve been put in the hospital. But i just cannot be there. I am so AFRAID to be there.

I feel like everything is speaking to me. Thats the worst part of being alone because im more inclined to "entertain" the thoughts.
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