Im so sorry valley.

Ive been taking my meds for a little under a week now and i still feel out of it. I just feel weird and more vulnerable to "entertaining" these thoughts i have.

I feel like i am more vulnerable to these thoughts right now. Which puts massive fear in me and more anxiety cuz i also dont have my gabapentin. Havent had it for a month.

I hate saying sht like this but...i feel like every news article i read on facebook its telling me something secretive that only i can see through the news article. Which, personally, is not safe for me. Because my paranoia is...its just not safe for me.

I almost slipped today and said something to my pss. I wouldve been put in the hospital. But i just cannot be there. I am so AFRAID to be there.

I feel like everything is speaking to me. Thats the worst part of being alone because im more inclined to "entertain" the thoughts.