Hi I'm new to this so sorry if this doesn't make any sense. I am the soul survivor of a triple homicide new years eve of 2013 in Ohio. I watched as my family was being murdered in front of me ...then the intruder came after me and shot me in my left eye and left me for dead. I have ptsd very badly . The family that was murdered was my boyfriend of going on 3 years back then and his 2 children boy 13 girl had just turned 18 in March and getting ready to graduate. I'm a lost soul looking for ways to help myself get through this torture. I have a lot of trigures and anxiety. I have done counseling but I quit after awhile because all she ever had me do was repeat the scenario over and over and over again. I'm looking for ways to keep my mind occupied and learn how to deal with the flash backs and so forth. I am going back to counseling at end of month. Ty