I thought I could make it through this break without feeling lost with no sessions. But the holidays are hard, Christmas eve was a night of abuse for me growing up.........and tonight everytime I close my eyes I see it.........I am angry with my T over a email he sent me last night, he told me to hang on these few days and don't drink to much, and that I have to see what my husband is doing, even though all this other stuff is going on, my husband wants me out and he doesn't understand why I cannot see that. I emailed him back and thanked him for reminding me of that, like I needed it........................he called today, and I wouldn't answer, I was pissed........now I wished I had........I hate it when I act and feel like I am a kid.........those feelings take over and the adult me goes into hiding...........the only one I hurt by not talking this out was me...........now I have to wait another 2 weeks before I can talk with him.............I just want tomorrow to be over with, then maybe I will feel alittle better!!!!!