I am always told to deep breath but it doesnt work. But thing about that is, vaping sometimes helps because it supports deep breathing. I guess i self medicate with vaping.

I cant listen to music because it makes it worse. a lot of my music is negative or borderline depressing. Idk why.

I almost bought a canvas and some paint at the grocery store cuz i wanted to paint. But then i didnt.

I see a lot of my creativity coming back this past week. Even tho im taking my haldol. And im realizing it doesnt come without the consequences. I feel very sad, anxious, and paranoid.