I personally experienced a similar sort of abuse throughout my childhood Rhapsody - numbers 1, 3, 4, 6, 7,9 and 10 are events I specifically relate to .... and its something I've never been really comfortable in sharing due to the sick, depravity of it all!

But ... and I mean this with all honesty and respect .... I am so ENVIOUS of your anger and hate!

As yet, I have been unable to get angry, but I have often thought that projecting this pain OUTWARD in being angry and rageful, must be alot easier to live with than having this disgust and poison projected INWARD in the form of an intense self-loathing.

But I am sorry you had to go through this Rhapsody ..... and that sometimes your rage at the world gets misinterpretted and leaves your being misunderstood by others who may not know the history.

take care xxx