How I always talked about it, if I could bare to do that much, was always vague and unemotional. This is how I've talked about most of my traumas.

I had a session two weeks ago. I finally talked about it in decent detail, the entire time more and more emotion seeped through until it was all I could do not to break down. I still want to break down from it. Not only has it exhausted me, it's left me unable to function. I can't do much of anything. Today is the first I've really been able to write.

Maybe the emotional disconnect is the better course. I don't know.