A pdoc wouldn't notice me being crazy in 15 minutes. I don't trust them and voices tell me to try to look completely normal or I will be IP.

What they see is someone who is not talking really much.

I went to the ER many times when I was depressed, and according to my pdoc by then I was having a psychotic break, but in the ER if they asked me about voices or such I lied. I never was IP from being psychotic, actually one time I was released while suffering from a madness episode I don't know if it would be considered mixed or psychotic or whatever or "too me", I was IP from taking 15mg of klonopin to sleep. But I had to kill everyone, and was so irritable, and demons controlled me. This time I didn't lie but I was released even if I said the true, I was too insane by then to lie. My pdoc was a bit WTF. Lol.