This is getting harder for me. I want to email her again, but it would be rude of me. She told me to be patient.

But this is triggering memories of when ex-T went on Christmas vacation and forgot to call me. I feel like T has forgotten about me. I can understand. This is her vacation. She's having fun. But I'm hurting at the same time. I feel abandoned. I know it's selfish to feel this way, but I do.