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Originally Posted by anais_anais
Another thread about the deaths of alters was making me think... I have an alter that is a girl, around 4 years old, and dead. She is a ghost. I only recently became co-conscious with her and she doesn't come out very often.
But now I am remembering back to that time, when I was four. I am suddenly remembering now how my mom told me a story about the family who lived in our house before us-- they had a daughter who died young from a heart condition. My mom would swear she could see the little girl's ghost at night when she was alone in the kitchen. So at night, because I couldn't sleep, I would become the ghost girl. I would wander around the house in pitch black as quietly as I could. I would be her. And sometimes I'd watch my mom and hear my mom call out, "hello?" and the next day she'd tell her friends about the ghost she saw. I did this almost every night.
I think I am remembering the creation of an alter, but I'm not sure. I know I have this alter, and now I have this story that goes with it. I've never had this happen before-- have any of you?
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I cant say whether this alter and story is how and why your alter was created...
what I can do is tell you here where I am alters are not created because someone wants be become someone else on purpose.
here where I am DID is a dissociative disorder that happens due to extreme trauma to children before the age of 5. and dissociation isnt something someone can choose to be here where I am, its an automatic reaction to things that a person is otherwise unable to handle..
example I didnt choose to be abused or choose for my mind to dissociate into many alters because I wanted to become someone else.
Rainy came into being due to being sexually abused in the most horrific ways in which I did not have the knowledge, understanding or abilities to handle that trauma. my bodies automatic reaction was to shut down all my senses so that I would not feel the pain, would not feel the emotions, not feel and know the trauma was happening... in other words my body and mind disconnected, went numb, spaced out, it was rainy that told my treatment provider about the first night she lived with in my body. I only gained that knowledge after Rainy integrated with me and we became one whole person again.
each one of my alters were created because I underwent extreme trauma which resulted in my brains automatic reaction of dissociation (mentally going numb, spaced out and disconnected)
to find out why and how your alter was created and whether it has to do with that story your mother told you and your purposely walking around the house like a ghost you will have to contact your own treatment providers.