I am so angry, rage filled anger...

Tuesday it will be 2 weeks since this tragedy happened.

I cant sleep I literally wake up choking for air every hour if not more often, Every waking hour I relive it over and over again.

I moved and I lost my T and I know that I have to find someone to help. But how do I survive until then ? I am using every coping skill..... its useless at this point.

I finally broke down to my husband and told him how F'ed up I am.. I hide things so well he just didn't realize.... He has been able to cope more but he didnt have to "clean up the aftermath"

I hate the person that has caused this living hell on me with every fiber of my being. I hate that she turned my home into a place that terrifies my every waking moment. How dare a person do this to another person.

** screams in a rage**