Fear of absorbing calories and taking in more than I would have in a given day than if I just ate my meals is one thing that helps.

I also really despise all the cleaning that I need to do before and after a binge/purge episode. I have OCD so sticking my head in the toilet- that toilet Better be super clean, before and after.

And I hate that I have spent thousands and thousands of dollars over the years on food that is essentially just flushed down the toilet.

And I hate the lying -even if it is not blatant , there is dishonesty that runs through so much eating disordered behavior, especially since I live with my mom right now. She would not be able to handle t if she knew I was back into bulimia.

And let's not forget that swollen glands in the face and throat are never a pleasure.

If I thought more I could come up with oodles more reasons I'm sure.
Thanks for asking. It helps to remind myself. I appreciate it very much.