I honestly wish your boyfriend was more understanding during that time of needing someone to help you cool down. It's sad you're having to deal with your own demons and then having to have more stress on top of that when you feel like you're upsetting your partner. I understand why you got upset about what they said, it's kinda a punch to the face being a girl and having a male say that you're basically not what guys "want" and while drinking alcohol, you're not in the right state of mind, that won't help you at all. Sorry you didn't get to enjoy your time, I hope you feel better.