I hate when my therapist tells me she's going out of town. I'm fine week to week/ between sessions. But whenever she tells me she's going out of town that weekend, it triggers all these panic feelings.

I become so obsessive in my thoughts, on where she's at, what she and her family are doing, how much fun they are having, when will they be back home, etc. It takes everything out of me, just to try and focus on other things, besides her and her vacation...

I haven't told her about this, it's too embarrassing to admit, but I have asked her not to share with me about the weekend trips (It doesn't affect my therapy schedule. she goes out of town a lot, due to sports and out of town family), she's re-framed from sharing a lot.. but slipped up this week about this weekend. So cue all this anxiety and obsessive thoughts..

Has anyone ever experienced this? How can I better cope? And what could be causing it? Especially, session to session I'm fine; it's just when I know she's out of town.