I hope I die soon.

No, don't worry. This isn't me saying "I am going to make sure I die soon." This is just me saying I want to die as soon as possible.

Not even sure why I said not to worry, except to soothe any mod who may read this. I know nobody truly cares. It doesn't matter how I feel. What I think. All that matters is that my heart still beats and my brain is still functional.

I will help others. I will watch my life crumble. I will watch people turn away. I will be alone in the end. And none of it matters. Not anymore. Why? Simple. Because I no longer matter.

Take care everyone and be good to yourselves. You still matter. Rejoice in that. Look me up if you need or want someone to talk to. Once you no longer feel the need, you can feel free to move on too...

I'm sure that's probably wishful thinking too. Who would want advice from a half wit like me?