I dont know...
Its like everything can be OK but then just one tiny thing goes wrong and I get all upset...
Like if I dont get what I want for tea or something...
I dont know, Im scared it may just be that Im a spoilt, selfish drama queen or something...
But I dont make a big scene or anything Im just quiet and upset till something really good happens to make up for it.

For example totay was OK, I opened all my presents and stuff and I was happy (as much as I usually am)
But I get this perfume from my gran that, yes, I did ask for so its my own fault, but I asked for it without knowing what it smelt like (stupid, I know)
Now Ive got it and smelt it and I dont like it
Now Im all depressed...
I dont know why coz its was my own fault, right?

Its also that I wasted my grans money, but mostly coz I have a wasted present... I dont know actually, maybe it is more guilty coz my gran wasted her money... Im not sure

I always see what I dont have...
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I dont know...
Its hard to explain how I feel and stuff...
Does it sound like Im just selfish or what?..