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Originally Posted by unaluna
The magazines say that we are responsible for our own good sexual experience. Maybe you are leaving too much in his hands, so to speak. He's just the bicycle - you need to know how to ride a bicycle, KWIM?  |
That's the thing. What I need to enjoy my own sexual experience puts it all in my head. If I put it in my own hands (literally) it feels weird sometimes (he's watching me do it). Meh. Sometimes, it's a joint effort and that's fine.
It's where my mind needs to go that upsets me, as he is not the one who engages my mind in the beginning of the act, in the initiation of the act. Does this all come from my early experiences of a rape and low self esteem? Do I have a kinky quirk my h just can't fulfill? Why am I needing to go to another place? Why do I have an out of body experience? Why do I need to get high? I was hurting myself. I think I've done liver damage.