I can remember when a few of us came to be. The most notable of them in my own thoughts would be when and how C.C. came to be. I have a clear memory of my body standing on a staircase and suddenly being faced with the reality that 'I' was not 'myself' anymore.

When I think on the things that helped shaped some of us before we came to be though, my own origin is something I like to think on now and then. I do not mean the event that made me become a distinct individual in my system, though I do know that as well, what I mean is why I am what I am, how I am. If that makes sense. I have a deep connect to an internal lake in my mind, bodies of water are a part of who and what I am as a person. I have a memory of being a young child and adoring the feel of being underwater in a lake. It felt big under the water, calm, quiet, peaceful, safe. I believe this water connect that was experienced as a child helped shape who I would come to be in my system.

I enjoy thinking on things such as that for not only myself but others in my system as well. I find it all rather fascinating and helpful in my attempts to try to gain understanding of my others.

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