Hi i m new. I m dealing with a serious issue and i need second opinion of this beautiful community.
I m male, 38, married for 10 yrs, with 1 x daughter (8 yrs). Sexual pleasure is not existent in my marital life as my wife is not attractive at all (why i married her is another story). So, now after being 6 years sober. When i see "hot" ladies. i feel like punching, cutting, slapping my face. or jumping from roof. i ve banged my head on wall a couple of times even leading to substantial injuries.
4 months back i met a girl (21 yrs old). She was poor and needed some one to take care of her. i ve helped her in past 4 months with every thing i could i never asked for any thing in return. being vulnerable, i fell in love with her and proposed her right during 1st week of our relation. she took some time on the plea that she need to talk to her parents. then for one reason or other, she did not let me see her parents but kept assuring me that she also likes me and WILL marry me. recently i came to know she did not tell me her real name and ve been hiding her identity. (Religion even). when i came to know, she said "i was not telling you as i was afraid u will leave me". i m so dejected that i turned my cell phone off and m not contacting her but this is only taxing me. she pursued me only for 2 days and is not contacting me either. But i doesnt seem like getting over her. i want her so bad. even if she is insincere (or not).

i want to ask, should i talk to her? is she a fraud or she really wasnt telling me her identity as she thought i would leave her? in fact she belongs to a community that people look upon as low lifers where do i live. but whats my option? should i talk to her or leave her for the good. i tried to leave her but my feelings for her are making me crazy and more than that, the pain of being treated like that by her, kept in dark...the lies that she has been telling me. its making me sick. i want to kill my self. please help me.