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Originally Posted by anais_anais
I do have did, yes. My therapists are unavailable for the next month and a half so I am just wondering here. I do not think the story is how the alter happened. I know and have experienced what causes alters to occur, and I don't feel the need to elaborate, thank you. But I wonder if that experience gave rise to this alter later. I don't remember the beginnings of any of mine and the fact that I can remember this portion of my childhood at all is very unusual for me because I have amnesia. But I am wondering if others do. This is not something that my treatment providers can help me with. If they were able I would not ask here.
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thank you for clarifying for me..... yes I had amnesia too you are not alone. I did not know what my alters reasons for being created were. My alters were the ones that told my treatment providers about the trauma's that led to their first moments of being, example Rainy told my therapist about having to take control while I was being abused during a storm and having to get me and her home, warm and dry.... Thelma told about the abusers prostitution of me and how because I could not handle that she came into being and her job, purpose reason for being was to enjoy and seek out sexual situations, dating and so on.
I do have memories of snippets of family stories but my own treatment providers explained to me even normal people have this kind of memory where sometimes family stories make a big impact on a persons life but are not the kind that created any alters with in me. example it is said that one of the mine shafts where I was raised was haunted by a few miners that died in the shaft. sometimes the young teen agers (13/ 14 yr olds) would go down into that forbidden branch of the mine to seek out their ghosts and one time some older teens (a few 16 yr olds) decided to scare the pants of um by hiding in the mine shaft and when the teens reached a certain point they would "hear the miners" its a rite of passage kind of thing in the mining town that some teens came up with years ago and it makes such a big impact on the teens that the teens just continue to play ghosts of miners past. I never did it but I always wondered if that game had anything to do with the fact that my abusers chose the mine to be the location of the abuse. its something I will probably never know. my opinion is I would have much rather the mines have been a game of finding the minors ghosts and play the ghosts of minors past then being abused in the mines. I would probably have better memories, more enjoyable memories now. but like I said its something that I will never have the answers to so I dont bother dwelling on what could have been, what should have been and wonder what ifs. to me theres more in life to marvel and wonder about then the past, the past is gone all I can do is move forwards.