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Originally Posted by Crypts_Of_The_Mind
Thank you for this. To be honest, up until this I did feel very attacked and reacted as such. I know I came off harshly bc it was intended that way. Now that I know you did not intend to offend me, I apologize for the harshness. I truly did feel you were "outting" me as if I were some sort of liar in the start of this conversation which in what incited the anger n defensiveness in me. Sorry. We are both human and as such both make mistakes. Perhaps you misworded or I misinterpreted, not sure. Either way, glad it's cleared. As far as my presumptions, I don't know, again maybe those were misinterpretations of something you said. When I am angry or defensive I do tend to misinterpret more than usual. Under normal circumstances, I ask before assuming anything if not directly told something as fact. I actually annoy people that way. Anyway, I do wish you well. Take care.
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I also had no intention of attacking you and I'm sorry if I came across that way. If anything, seeing you go through what you are due to your marriage puts coals in the fire to fuel my already intense resentment towards happy couples (not you of course).
I don't deny that I have a lot of issues with envy. I envy happy attractive couples because I know that it it highly unlikely that I will find somebody that will love and accept me for who I am that I could spend the rest of my life with due to a combination of my MI and the fact that I have shifted my priorities towards my entrepreneurial goals and my passions, which means that if I am successful, I will probably attract more gold diggers and possibly a psycho or two that will want to use me for money or protection or whatever.
While I am anti marriage, largely due to my own experiences and goals in life, I do hold a degree of envy and resentment towards people who have found love for this very reason. I know that a romantic relationship isn't for the likes of me because what I want in life conflicts with relationships.
Anyways, I'm sorry if I upset people here. Communication skills aren't my strong suite.