Am I the only one that on the dawning of a new year gets depressed? I find myself looking back on this year with a huge bunch of regrets and not many happy things. I went in on Emergency to my T's office today and the lady I talked with didn't seem to understand my urgency. Maybe because I was looking at a magazine when she came out to get me and I didn't hear her call my name but oh well. She seemed to think that because I could articulate what was going on and that I had plans for the evening I wasn't in crisis. Ummm lets see when I get home tonight I will be in a bad place because I'll be all by myself alone with my thoughts. That's when I get into trouble. Last night I ended up in the ER due to some major problems I was starting to not be able to figure out what was real and what wasn't. I'm scared that will happen again tonight and I'll have no where to turn.

Janniebug