You deserve good treatment. I see you posting that to others all the time but it seems like you don't think it is true for yourself. But it's true...

I wish you had a good therapist easily available. I travel 75 minutes each way but I know that isn't something that would be easy for you. I don't know if I would do that if I wasn't established with a therapist I really liked when I moved. But probably since there isn't a lot of choice here.

It's hard; I know. But you really should get good care; your providers owe that to you.