Any chance of a sliding scale somewhere? I know where I go offers it but I go to a Christian agency and that may change things.

Your therapist was idiotic to tell you that they aren't happy pills. I hate when they say that kind of thing.

Does your husband know you are feeling really bad?

Would it be better to go IP now before it has a chance to get even worse? Maybe a few days now would save you from a longer stay in a month or 2. A hospital SW might also be able to help you find a better therapist situation. And you've not been doing as well on the zyrexa so maybe they need to try to help you with that and IP is the fastest way to go for that as well.

I'm coming to the conclusion that if I'm not better in 10 days when I see my pdoc I'm seriously considering going IP to stop the hallucinations. They're better but still there and too much and I've fought hard enough. Haven't you? I think from here it sure looks that way.