I agree with ATAT and KC.

I'd also add -- eff all diagnoses at this point (I understand the urge, all too well, to name and identify things [however imperfectly] in an effort to impose order on what feels like unbearable internal chaos but I also think doing so can take one down roads that are sort of hard to come back from, especially when embarked on at times of incredible fragility).

I would think -- as ruthlessly objectively as possible -- if any modicum of support you could obtain from the T would help make a material difference to your emotional life right now. If not, then the answer is clear. If yes, then perhaps continuing for the time being -- while being excruciatingly explicit about the hurt / pain you're experiencing by his behavior -- might be the way to go while also working towards the December date and obtaining referrals during the interim (and potentially checking out the referrals while continuing to see him)?