Honestly guys, I think it was mostly me being overly sensitive due to a huge amount of stress I am going through. Yes, I did take some things you said wrong, Darkness, but I also was thinking maybe I had. Which was why I pm you. You and I are great friends I believe and so I feel safe in doing that. Thank you for explaining. I do believe you can have a romantic relationship if you ever choose, but unfortunately with that comes a lot of heartache both in finding "the right one" and in trying to establish and grow the relationship, so you also have to be willing to see it through even through the crappy times. Even those couples that present as "happy couples" have moments in time when they would like nothing more than to just disappear or leave or get physically violent, but if a couple is generally genuinely happy and truly loves one another, those thoughts are just that, thoughts...they may scream n cry n slam doors though, but in the end, they will work it through. So, there are happy couples, but not perfect couples. It's my experience many confuse happiness with perfection when it comes to love (at least initially), so if you are getting upset bc you can't find perfection, don't..you never will...BUT...you can find someone who wants nothing more than your happiness, love, affection, and acceptance ... and is willing to do what it takes to assure those things take place both for her and you. Anyway...sorry if I spoke where I should not.