Some background: My boyfriend, L, and I have been together for almost 4 years. We met when he was a junior and I was a senior in high school. I was diagnosed with major depression and anxiety when I was 16, so finding someone that I connected with who didn't make me feel like a burden was incredible. We fell in love so fast, and we've been through so much together: his family problems, both of our parents' divorces, and him going through 9 months of Marine Corps training in other states. We moved into our first apartment in May 2016, and lived there until November 2016 when I found out I was pregnant and we moved back home an hour away to be closer to our families.

Anyone who's moved out on their own and then had to move back home knows how tough it can be... there's no privacy, and we're living in a tiny shoebox of a room with our now 4 month old son and dog. We're so happy we moved back home because the help we've received from our families has been amazing and as a new mom, I don't know what I would have done without them.

Things are starting to change, though. We're both always angry and stressed out, and though I've recently started taking antidepressants again, it doesn't seem to be helping. I'm starting to hate being around L because everything he does just annoys me so much. I find myself daydreaming of being with literally anyone else and wondering if I really do want to spend the rest of my life with him like I always thought. All I can see in him are his faults. Plus with the stress of a baby and being in such an overcrowded house (there are 6 of us here), I'm starting to feel the need to run so far away to get away from everything and everyone, including my son and boyfriend.

My real problem is that I can't tell if the problem is within my relationship or within my environment, or both. I don't want to imagine my life without L because I really do love him so much. I'm going out of my mind.