Thank you AB and kecanoe. My T has always backed up her words with actions. She's never lied to me.

It's just that I really don't think I'm going to get an email if I haven't gotten it already.

And yes, she doesn't have an international plan on her phone. That's why she said I can't call or text her...and she wasn't going to be bringing her work phone.

Yeah, I've gone 4 weeks without seeing her, but I have never gone more than 8 days without some sort of communication with her. I wrote her Tuesday night, so I haven't had any communication with her for 11 days! Sounds silly...only 3 days more than what I'm used to, but it's hard. I have survived my relationship with her because of the constant contact/reassurance.

Even though I have gotten better, I still suffer from the symptoms of BPD. Right now, I'm starting to feel abandoned which is making me want to pull away from her. I'm trying to fight the urge. I'm trying to trust her. But I just don't think she's going to email.