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Originally Posted by all74
I'm sorry your boyfriend is being so unhelpful... negligent is actually the word that comes to mind but I don't know him so maybe I'm being too harsh. Do you have any family you can go to? Or friends? Maybe being out of that environment would help de-activate you a bit.
I've been there with the chicken and egg thing - I use something when I'm contaminated, I get clean, then I can't use that thing anymore. When my OCD was at its worst the way that I would get unstuck is to use latex gloves while using Clorox wipes on the thing (e.g. my computer), ditch the gloves, and then shower. CBT helped me get better with that.
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No, I have no family or friends. My mom died three years ago and I have a cousin, but there's bad blood with him and his wife.
My sister warns me against calling anybody or leaving (as if I had the money), but people here tell me to do the opposite. I can't go to a shelter. No one seems to get what it is to have
my OCD. They might have OCD, but they're not in my shoes. To have all that exposure at one time... I can't. I've gone many days where I was "dirty" and it didn't get easier. It got worse. It's easy to judge when your situation is different than mine, just because you have the same disorder.
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