My moods are swinging dramatically. It is infuriating as I want to be discharged (IP) but pdoc says not till I am stable. At least today is an upswing. I feel positive and hopeful and the agitation is much lower than the excruciating pains of yesterday. But what does tomorrow hold? I don't know and that bothers me. Trying to live in the moment and it works sometimes but other times I get drowned by my mood swings.

Today was nice. I went for a walk along the beach with my feet in the water, had lunch with my parents then hung out at their house for a while before coming back to hospital. My mind is racing but I don't feel hypomanic. Just feel like my head is crammed full of people taking to each other.