I didn't necessarily say that it's all his fault! Although my personal opinion is that he's not a very good therapist (though as I said to you, I don't see my opinion as particularly relevant here)... His approach might work great for some people. It just wasn't right for you. So in that sense it isn't anyone's 'fault'.

I just really don't want you to beat yourself up over this, I guess. I really think you're handling it so well despite the pain it is causing you. I suppose that's why people think you're coping so well...

I relate, though. I was thinking about how I will feel if I leave my T... and the answer was, I will feel like a failure, like I'm broken and beyond help. So... The same as you. I think that comes from somewhere deep inside us.