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Originally Posted by daisydid
I know that the dynamic you describe is incredibly difficult, because I have been in therapeutic relationships like this. And while there was an inherent power differential between T and me, there was also a deep understanding on his part of me and he shared quite a bit with me as well. Too much at times, actually. One of his pitfalls. H also never owned the narrative. That's contrary to his practicing modality.
This is why I said in my initial post that I was looking for support. I'm terminating with a therapist who at one time was a wonderful match for me and I was able with him to do some good work. That's why I'm so heartbroken that it needed to end. It's different now, and we don't have enough time to fix it. I don't want to continue to try to invest time to fix it.
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This is exactly my situation is well. I find it remarkably strange, reluctantly, how something that once worked so well can devolve- or even plummet- to something unsalvageable and what looks to be completely foreign, in the end.
Heartbroken. As am I. You have something I don't encompass and which I commend you for...you could terminate your T relationship, not having to block the person out, worried you may not be able to leave. My heart goes out to you.
You're self-aware enough to know this doesn't work for you. There is growth in that and in your reply. I have found the regulating my emotions is by only going through them. I get stronger with each heartbreak and this too, will be in your favor. It will serve you.
To walk away from this is very hard, I know...especially being attached. I hope you're not in too much pain, but just know someone out there completely gets everything you're saying.