I keep thinking about this, and it makes perfect sense to me that you're having such a hard time with your T while a premature termination is looming on the horizon. I would be feeling the exact same way if I knew my T was going to be unavailable to me before I really felt like I was ready to be done. I think the most puzzling thing is that your T doesn't seem to recognize this and/or doesn't understand how to help you through it. That alone makes me think it might be time to try to wind down with him and/or transition to somebody new. The only thing that is helpful to me, sometimes, is my T's seemingly supernaturally steady presence and availability. If she couldn't offer me that anymore, I'm not sure I would want anything from her at all. That's the whole trick of the attachment work.