I had a negative event happen last week that triggered a depressive episode and severe suicidal ideation. My T couldn't see me Friday, but made an appointment for me on Monday. I went into the issues as I perceived them in my journal (wrote several pages!) including my deepest thoughts on suicide. These are very detailed in my journal as well as my thoughts and feelings leading up to them. I wrote it all in an attempt to vent, and to try to feel a little better about myself.

Unlike a lot of people I express myself better in writing than I do verbally. I'm thinking of sharing my entry into my journal with my T tomorrow because I think it will explain what I'm going through better than I can, but I have all that suicide "stuff" in there. If I edit what I tell him, he'll ask my why I'm not sharing completely and I'll have no plausible answer.

Is sharing my journal with my T a bad idea? I've fought with this question all weekend. Time is short, and I can't make up my mind.