I understand your fears about him seeing the suicide stuff.I too do better with writing. What I've done before is take the most important parts of my journal and type it and print it out or you can rewrite it on a different paper if you want to leave out the suicide stuff. I know I'd be scared to death for my therapist to read my journal because it goes detailed into my plan and I don't want to end up in the hospital so I would never let him read my journal but that's me. Good luck to you with your decision.