Another point about this issue. I have decided to let it go now. I am in a facility which will take care of me the rest of my life. This VA Clinic will take care of my physical health and mental health for the most part. I will never have a significant other again. I will never work again. So I have decided to let it all go. My dissociative disorder and borderline personality disorder will not affect my life here. My therapy will be for the most part posting on this board and going to psycho-therapy at the VA.

If the sadness and the grief pain get too extreme (That is really what causes my anxiety. Emotional pain that makes you feel like your guts are being ripped out.) I will have the pdoc medicated me.